Grandma Kathy

This past week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. On Thursday March 19, 2015 my Grandma Kathy joined the angels in heaven and I was heart broken. The next few nights I cried myself to sleep and felt like the next few days where spent in a daze. I think I have cried all the tears that I can cry and we celebrate her life Wednesday  March 25,2015.

I want to dedicate this post to my grandma she is one of the most amazing, kind, genuine people I know. I had the opportunity to speak at here services, I got focus on her life and her memories it was one of the best ways to cope and get closure.

Life is now starting to get back to normal it's still hard but I know she is happier and healthier. This lady has blessed my life more than I could ever explain she is my biggest fan and cheerleader she was always there. I wish she could be here to pick out my wedding dress one day and see me walk down the aisle. I  wish I could of had one last sleep over in our fluffy pink robes. It one of those things where every step in my life I will wish  she was here. I know she is my angel and she will be there in spirit.  I love you!

                                Grandma’s gone to heaven.

One quite day the angels came

And took my grandma far away

But in the stillness of the night

I could almost her say

Dear grandchild I will miss you

You mean so much to me

But Jesus called me to his side

In heaven I will be

A place of God’s great beauty

No tears or earthly cares

Only peace and joy forever

And love beyond compare

So remember all the good times

Don’t think about the sad

Treasure all the special moments

Through the years we've had

And if you trust in Jesus

I can promise this and more

You will get a hug from grandma

Someday at heaven’s door

Happy Birthday Sara

Well today my little sister turns 20, yep that's right she is officially no longer a teenager. This is weird but I guess I have to accept that she is no longer the little girl who I shared my room with. She is the second youngest of the seven kids in my family but the first to get married. This past year has been an adventure for her and I know that this year is going to be even more exciting.

So Sara and I ,especially this past year, like to fight and yell at each other not because we are mad but because we love each other too much and think that it is our job to make the others persons life how we think it should be, me more so than her. What others don't understand is that that is how we have always been this last year was just hard cause my little sister was getting married and I don't think I was ready for it, I know I am still not used to it but it's growing on me and I am glad to add another member to our big family.  The reason I went into all that is because I am sorry for the fights that we had this year mostly because we let other people get into the middle of it and make it worse. I am glad things are back to normal and we can live our lives as bickering sisters.

So this is to my Sara Bear, go ahead read it, warning it is going to be sappy!

(Sara you might want to grab some tissues cause I know this will make you tear up)

Princess,

Wow I can't believe you are 20. I am so proud of the women you are becoming. I see the hard work you are doing to prove everyone wrong, even me, that you aren't too young to be married. I say way to go prove me wrong. I am so glad you are going to school you have always been so smart and I know you have all the potential in the world to be an amazing whatever you decide to  be when you grow up. You are a beautiful women inside and out who makes huge differences in the peoples lives you are in, I love you to pieces and hope you have an amazing day! See you at Family dinner tonight!

Love Always,

Alissa

About me

Hello and welcome to Always Alissa! I started this blog to share my life with my friends, family, and who ever else decides to stop and read my ramblings.
I am looking forward to sharing my opinions, adventures, dreams, secrets, laughter and tears. To share the ins and outs of my life you need to know a little bit about me and people I share my wonderful life with.

I am a 24 year-old from Utah and I am currently living with the love of my life Bryce and our adorable dog Dash in a basement apartment. I took a break from school to follow my dreams of becoming a state pageant tittle holder and compete nationally! I am happy to say I was your Miss Utah United States 2014. I currently work as a Pharmaceutical Technician but I know this wont be my career I will soon be back in school hitting the books. What I will be going into is still a mystery to me. Outside of pageantry I enjoy FOOD -- I love to cook it, eat it, and share it, I love trying new things, reading, planning and shopping.

I had another blog but I always felt restricted and in the end  it just wasn't me. So I decided to try again but this time I am going to always be me, Always Alissa. I have reached a point in life where I am happy the way I am, I am strong willed, opinionated, and ready to share it with the world.